Monday, 17 August 2015

Poem: The cavern of my thoughts

how do you know how long to wait
do you smell it when the time is up
or do you blindly take a leap of faith?
how much of our childhood memories
have we changed with time? 
when age takes us over, will they still be vivid?
and do you know the answer to the question
why poets will never be scientists?
sometimes we need that alarm clock to ring louder
to get us back on the road again
as we counted the stars from sunset to sunrise
but forgot the number, because our lips entwined
by the camp fire we exchange conversations
that could fill a book, yet there still won't be
any black and white answers, as we would expect
since we don't like it to be gray, especially when
talking about future plans; some trust that the plane
will get them to the destination in the right direction
others would rather use a magnifying glass
to spy through the keyhole, but it wouldn't bring
nothing but a worried face; since you can't really
trust your eyesight, it has flaws as well,
like your mind.

Poem: Coffee and tea

it's the way it gently kicks you
in the morning or in the night
when you need to stay sharp
it's the way lovers first meet
with glances and smiles
exchanging hearts
the way we openly share
our experience with friends
the way we study
words into our heads
the way we find comfort
in those days of cold and sadness
the way it has become a ritual
for which we could fight
it's the way we speak about death
in hushed voices and with respect
knowing it awaits us as well
the way it brings people together
in all countries of the world
how much of our lives is shared
over a cup of coffee and tea
and how they will never know

Tuesday, 11 August 2015

Poem: A Puff of Smoke

a puff of smoke can dim the whole room
can't understand how loss can do the same thing
turns the colours into hazy tones
through eyes which can't see the picture clearly
all of a sudden, as if they are trying to pinch themselves awake
lungs anticipating the last breath
inhaling in deep gasps, sounding like an old machine
and you swear that an arrow went right
through the chambers of your heart
while the mind is trying to find logic behind
why some people just leave and things fall apart
in a puff of smoke and everything changes
or is that what the mind perceives
and it takes time to show us the illusion
Written for the Mag #282.

Poem: Late Summer

how much of your life
has been spent riding
on a wild horse, 'cause
one thing led to another
and you never stopped
to think and reflect
if it's the right way
do your lungs still breathe?
does your heart know passion?
do your feet touch the ground?
when something fails
causes you seek everywhere
but you failed yourself first
stroke the fields of grain
with your hand and feel
how the wind caresses everything
the feet yearn to feel the earth
connection to that old self they seek
and lungs to find that limit of their ability
like a child in foetus position
yearning to feel home surrounding
in the late summer you seek home
Written for the Mag #281.

Friday, 26 June 2015

Blog: Jogging and sunshine

Now that is a wonderful title, isn't it :) It would be nicer if in fact there would be more sunshine, but it's been better than last year so far, so I won't complain. Second thing, I can't believe half of 2015 is over, where did it go?! Behind which corner is it hiding?! I may have too many hobbies and things to do, and then time just flies, sometimes I just don't know anymore where in time we are. Anyway, it's been an interesting and amazing year so far (well, having a regular job would be a cherry on the cake).. I've been running, studying, went to see AC/DC in Zeltweg, went on a few trips, photographed another wedding, we got a dog.. what else? Oh, I got a certificate in Reflexology and hopefully in time I will find a job in that field.

Running.. after arthroscopy I never really thought I could run like this.. to be truthful, I never thought I would have it in me to be this stubborn and run two organized runs of 10 km in two weeks. And that I've run about 150 km this year so far. I do have some problems with my left leg, just goes to show that rehabilitation isn't what it's supposed to be, and again, you're left to yourself to figure what you should be doing and where the problem lies. My first (ever) 10 km was at a marathon organized for women only, and it was too hot for me, but the second one was at night and it was much much better; I'm looking forward to the third one.

Last year our dog died very suddenly, and this year we got another one, the same stubborn breed ;)
He's very eager to play with our cat, but cat ain't very much interested :)

I've been studying different things, but just wanted to share a few with you. First I got a book about Psoas (a very important muscle that with our lifestyle suffers). Here's an interesting article that touches the subject: link. Another article that I'm sharing so it will kick you off your chair, hopefully: link.

Vitamin D. Ever thought of that vitamin? When I learned that vit D deficiency is related to breast and colorectal cancer I started digging deeper. We usually think about it only as a vitamin necessary to take calcium into the bones, but in fact it's much more than that, it also plays a role in our moods, it can be thought of as a sort of hormone, since deficiency is related to depression (think of Finland). Since I have gut problems, I also researched the importance of it in IBS and some studies show that symptoms of IBS disappeared when patients started taking high doses of this vitamin. The main reason I'm telling you this, is the fact that I'm also vitamin D deficient, despite eating and exposing my skin to the sun (without wearing sunscreen - it lowers the vit D that will be produced).

My mind has also been blown out by a course on Coursera, about Microbiom. It's a favourite topic of mine, since I see the difference the good bacteria does. Anyway, to put it just in a few words. They are connecting microbiom with autism, colon cancer (a certain bacteria if present causes cancer in years), IBD, heart disease and obesity. They also found a connection between brain and gut, and how our bacteria can alter our moods. And if under stress some of the bacteria may leak through the intestinal wall and make us sick. It is also linked with depression, since the bacteria are directly linked with immune system. 10% of serotonin (happy hormone) is found in the brain, 90% of it is found in the GUT! Now that you know a bit about it, think what our processed foods and sterile environment do to the gut. So, microbiom can be related to memories, moods and our decisions and there is still more to be found about it.

I've also studied how you can cure nearsightedness. Here's a link that I would interesting: link.

And I think that's about it what I wanted to share... Enjoy :)

Poem: Let it grow

image by Sarolta Ban

I was in a hurry
following the plan
not to be late
as I passed by an older man
limping, slowly walking
from his morning walk
through the meadow
for in his hands he held
a bouquet of freshly picked
wild flowers

it made me wonder who they were for
who in his life journey did he meet
to care, to cherish
and how many life battles
did they undertake
not to fear this war
through little battles
we write our stories

either bleeding from the bruises left open
either rejoicing in learning and carrying on
teaching others how to dance
you are the master of your tones
under the skin is where we hide

do we allow to be happy and just to be?
and do we let others grow
do we speak in a matter that allows
roses to still grow as roses?
 Written for the Mag #274