Wednesday, 29 December 2010

Blog: Times they are a' changing

These days I've been baking cookies ... and while doing that, I was listening to the radio. And since the year of 2010 is coming to an end, they are asking the listeners how their year was, what are their wishes for everyone for the new year ... and so on and on. 

Most callers are retired old women and men, mostly women though. And they always have so much to say, so they have to cut them off. Almost everyone has some good advice, for example, we have to trust each other, be open and nice... and those are probably the people who wouldn't want to have a gay neighbour, or, god forbid, a gipsy. And where will niceness bring you? People in general don't like people who are too nice. Looking from my point of view, I consider myself a nice person, but people exploit nice people for their own benefits. Example, school, nice people make homework for the whole class, just because they are so nice... even though half of those in the class couldn't do the homework on that level. And niceness leads to the point where you can't say what you really think, because you have to be nice. Personally, I'd be crept out if the whole society became nice, friendly... I'd be like, what happened, has the universe ended?! But I do think I know what that caller wanted to say. A little more friendliness, may friends be friends and may family be close.

And health. Everybody asks for health in the new year, like it's something that is handed in boxes. I'm really saddened, when the definition of a good doctor is someone who has a pill for everything you have or have made up. Health is in your hands. Whether your body will be healthy or not, is in your hands (except for gene related disease). Stress, food, relations, friends... what you feel and how you solve problems. One of my patient mentioned this, she had a bowel disease, and said, if you swallow your emotions, those emotions will go somewhere and do something to your body. And I agree with her. Doctors can be a great help with broken bones and other similar situations. Working on preventing diseases and living with what nature offers us (what we haven’t ruined yet) is the key. A lot of elder people have something they “need” a pill for, and then they need an extra pill for the side effect of the first one...and so on and so on. Pharmaceutical circle. And I used to see elder people as the ones, that should know about herbs and these and that “kitchen medicine”.

And everyone’s so smart when it come to politics. But I do agree that politicians take care only of their asses and they are mostly just messing up the country.

And homeless young adults, whose life is as it is, mostly because they have a low education and can’t find a descent job. And I think it’s a shame... most high school are easy, a chimp could do it. Formal educational paper is so over-rated. School is not a place where you will learn, it’s a place where they brainwash you, make you feel like you’re stupid if you disagree ...  this school system we have is degrading.

And if you survive a brain damage in a car accident... and you lost what you once knew, and have to start on the level of a baby. How much more can you appreciate life and yourself.

And I can’t help but think of the song by Bob Dylan, Times they are a’ changing, which was captured greatly in the intro to the movie Watchmen.
“Come mothers and fathers throughout the land and don’t criticize what you can’t understand,
your sons and your daughters are beyond your command, your old road is rapidly agin’
please get out the new one if you can’t lend your hand”

We have so much potential, that we mostly never reach. And what did I want to say?
May thoughts be your own, may the weight of the world not bring you down, may you find new roads and never surrender.


Sunday, 26 December 2010

Movie: 7 faces of Dr. Lao (1964)


Plot: »A mysterious circus comes to a western town bearing wonders and characters that entertain the inhabitants and teach valuable lessons.”

I saw 7 faces of Dr. Lao awhile ago and it’s the kind of movie that sticks in your mind. Worth seeing, if you haven’t seen it yet.  It scores 7 stars on IMDb, but I’d give it 8, or even 9. Tony Randall plays 7 different characters, but he plays them so well as if they used 7 different actors. But his face as a Chinese man wasn’t all that convincing. Medusa was fascinating though. 

Movie is based upon a novel by Charles G. Finney called The circus of Dr. Lao. I haven’t read it yet, but it’s my intention to.

In a scene where Dr. Lao talks with Mike about life, I liked his monologue and the fact that afterwards admits that he doesn’t understand it, and goes on cheerfully jumping. To quote:
“The whole world is a circus if you know how to look at it. The way the sun goes down when you're tired, comes up when you want to be on the move. That's real magic. The way a leaf grows. The song of the birds. The way the desert looks at night, with the moon embracing it. Oh, my boy, that's... that's circus enough for anyone. Every time you watch a rainbow and feel wonder in your heart. Every time you pick up a handful of dust, and see not the dust, but a mystery, a marvel, there in your hand. Every time you stop and think, "I'm alive, and being alive is fantastic!" Every time such a thing happens, you're part of the Circus of Dr. Lao.”

A scene with the fortune-teller is also a very memorable, and it holds the naked truth. 

“Tomorrow will be like today, and the day after tomorrow will be like the day before yesterday. I see your remaining days as a tedious collection of hours full of useless vanities. You will think no new thoughts. You will forget what little you have known. Older you will become, but not wiser. Stiffer, but not more dignified. Childless you are, and childless you will remain. Of that suppleness you once commanded in your youth, of that strange simplicity which once attracted men to you, neither endures, nor shall you recapture them.”

And after finding out a grim prophecy, she fix the make up and goes on pretending, living her life, like she knew how.  That's sounds so familiar. 

We want to hear how things will turn out great for us, with fortune and health in our hands. But if we live our lives, repeating the same day over and over is anything going to change?

If you've seen this movie, what where your thoughts?


Friday, 24 December 2010

Blog: December holidays

December, and with it the year 2010, is coming to an end. I don't care much for Christmas or New Years. But as a kid, this was my favourite time of the year, all the colourful lights, decorated trees and snow to play with, and of course the presents. The fascination slowly slipped away. Now a walk in a store at this time gives me a headache. I find no magic in what society made out of Christmas, just a way to spend money. I wouldn't want to be a kid in these days. Not saying that it was better before... I can't say that.  Maybe I'm saying so because I have the experience to critique it, if you're a kid, you're probably impressed with all the things they offer you. 

Last few years I spent my Christmas holidays listening to Trans Siberian Orchestra (which I still do!) and watching movies like Bridget Jones' Diary or Love Actually (so ashamed to admit!) and of course stuffing my stomach with sweets. This year I'm only sticking with TSO and I'm adding baking to the list. One of my absolute favourite songs by TSO is Epiphany:

What makes the end of December somewhat better, is snow. But we've been having a mixture of snow and rain, at the moment just rain. Otherwise I'm a fan of rain, really, but this is just a bit too much, even for me.

I got a present from a friend, a little book of relaxation, and there is one quote that I really liked so far. 
"Besides the noble art of getting things done, there is the noble art of leaving things undone. The wisdom of life consists in the elimination of non-essentials." - Lin Yutang. 
This applys to me... my mind's 'to do list' is always full, and I'm the kind of person that has to do a lot of things, especially those things that I don't like, first, before I can have fun and do what I'd really like. It's really fascinating how I get my poems written. When our left side of brain is the driver (analytical, has things to do) and our right side a mere observer, silent companion.

Another quote that I'd like to share with the world, comes from Maya Angelou:
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
Rings with truth. 

The year 2010 hasn't been so good to me, as I would've hoped... it had a lot of "bad days", but as long as I can learn something from them, I'm okay. I just don't want them to drown me.

I'd like to end this blog with a question: What do you do around Chrismas & New Years, any traditions, and how did you experience these holidays when you were a child?

May you have love and peace in your hearts and tounges.


Tuesday, 21 December 2010

Poem: Child left behind

days roll faster and faster
things you knew and loved
have gone away or been replaced
pages written have gotten fewer and fewer
you acknowledge the change in the years number
but you're stuck at a point in the past
abandoned by the spoken words
mind free to run through the fields and far beyond
to bathe in the lake of your imagination
found yourself in a conflict with the form
for it is unmoving, stable and caught
but it taught you senses through which you feel
in search for a way in which you could be at ease
to grab the thing that keeps you from singing
and not to be a friend of shadows
there are so many stories in which you played a part
but left them before the end was written
in this world it only matters
how good you sell yourself
how good you please others
what kind of living is this?
when you feel most alive in your dreams
but the fear and expectations push you further
as the desire to return to the child
left behind gets bigger and bigger

© Nataša Dolenc

 In this time and place, I think a lot of people can find themselves in this poem. Did you?

Monday, 20 December 2010

Poem: Wearing Autumn

Wearing Autumn
don't be fooled by this white dress
these curves and lines
in truth, I am wearing autumn
colorful coats, wind at the feet
waving dark golden hair
got caught in her adorable breath
her face blooming with wisdom
gracefully she walks in
bringing with her the cold
that goes into my hands
and I hide them
in the pockets of my coat
drying my hair in the wind
drinking from her well
thinking through her slightly
        melancholic mind
for you see, I am always wearing autumn
© Nataša Dolenc

 Written in July of this year.

I don't know if you share my enthusiasm about autumn, but I always felt most comfortable and most at peace during that season. I get the most inspiration from it, and it seems like it's easier to think clearer. Besides, I'm autumn-born.