Poem: Lifetime Warriors

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We're multilayered. Like a colourful woolen sweatshirt.

Not everyone can see, how many layers we carry -

for we hide behind them like a shield.

Since we know the world can be a lone, hard and cold place -

we hide for fear of being seen. We fear that people will get to know us

and abuse us for their own purpose. Most of all - we fear being hurt.

We express ourselves through words and deeds;

Still there is much being unsaid, which only flickers

somewhere in the distance - inside our eyes.

We find comfort looking at the night sky,

because answers wait there for us.

There is a lot of difference between every hello & goodbye.

The one that comes last, always hits the hardest.

Regrets of things undone sweep in - they can fill a book.

Here and there life reminds us of the true purpose.

We're still discovering ourselves, the multitudes that surround us;

Searching for meaning of our lives, between the work that we do

and the bills we have to pay, and the things we wish we were doing

or wish we'd had. All the things we're so afraid to do and to be -

afraid to love,

afraid to be fragile,

afraid to show our skins,

afraid to shed our masks,

seems so minor and foolish when you stare into the abyss.

We shouldn't love for a reason, when the reason disappears, so does the love.

We're chasing each other through the plains of stardust

time does not exist there.

Deep inside we know who we are and where we come from -

we make arrangements of the parts and lessons we will give each other.

Not really knowing how it will feel, the path we will endure.

When our hearts collide together it feels like jumping into the fountain of peace.

There is something so familiar when skin touches another skin.

We're warriors, and we roam these endless fields,

writing our stories. Each and every one unique. In it,

we're never alone. Touching and crashing into each other.

Lifetime, seems a fleeting moment. No one can really die,

             if they stay in our hearts.

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Blog: Keep calm and run on

Ollie, so easy to love

2016 -  A year that Chernobyl generation turned thirty. When you're a teenager, it seems such a long way ahead, and how old you will feel, but once you get there, you don't know what all that fuss is about. Few days ago I saw a quote on Facebook, that goes something like this "When you take up running you say 'I run'. After a while you say 'I'm a runner'". It feels like I reached that part. Beginnings are hard, but our bodies are well adapted to running or to say it better "we are born to run". 

This year I ran about 790 km, biked 130 km and hiked 160 km. I participated 2 organized runs of 10 km. I got 3 minor injuries, but one of them was caused by a dog, so it's not all because of my clumsiness. Besides, if the owner would have pulled the leash, it wouldn't have happened. The one injury that worries me the most is patellar tendonitis, since it can take up a lot of time before it gets healed. Here's a link, if anyone else is having trouble with it. And of course it's on the knee that was already operated. I wasn't thinking about it before, but when I look back, that arthroscopy might have been a quick fix, but it may not have been the best option.

Many people still comment, that running might not be good for me, since I have knee problems, but they seem not to know, that running on unpaved roads and forest's path can heal the knees. Since regular exercise actually stimulates repairing of the knee cartilage, for example. I feel the knees start to ache if I take a few weeks off, not that I do, but some injuries demand rest. Knees are such a fascinating joint. Did you know that "The load distributed over the kneecap can be up to 5 times the body weight, particularly on going down stairs."? Mind and body function much better with regular doses of running ;)

Otherwise, this year was very interesting, taught me a lot. I participated in a sport massage course, got myself a massage table, got a new job (the pay is better, but it seems impossible to find a well-organized joby in healthcare system), moved, took up gardening and building. Started a big project and have a few more ideas up my sleeves :) But about time, Enya says it best.

For the end I'll share another video - Ode to joy; for some reason it has a deep impact on me, and I bite my lips not to cry every time I hear it.

A new year, a new day, holds a lot of possibilities, and it's up to us to see them and make them a reality. I wish things to move forward and start changing... and I'm wishing you a happy new year ;)

Poem: Rat Race

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it's hard to begin, to explain

- to put it simply

when, how and where it all started

but most of all why -------- ?

why have we became selfish mirrors

putting all the importance on ourselves

always running the rat race with no goal

our egos hungry for luxury and power

our eyes blind and closed shut

so easily led astray, somehow comfortable

with our living -- like in a TV set

allowing this machine to continue the massacre

how can we live so comfortably with it?

how can we still turn a blind eye?

when it could be you on the other side

as if it's not in our interest to live in peace together

when will we clear our minds and stand tall

prove that humanity still lingers in our hearts?

have we buried our true selves too deep?

have we learned nothing at all?

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